ϡ - Appointments Post

[folklorist]

This post here is for personal conversations which should happen but one or both of us doesn't want to put up a new post/log and thus we will just thread it out here. This can be used to thread with Helios anytime and anywhere. This can either be in person (with action), or via the journal's call feature (voice and/or written).

When replying to this post please mark in the subject line when and how it is taking place EX:
[Action, March 11th]
[Voice, September 8th]
[Written, June 10th]

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[folklorist]

[ Luminair squeaks at the nudge. So that's how it's going to be hmmm? Well fine no biting but he will make to try and swipe at said tail and even nip at it. Hey. It's not like he has loads of teeth yet, okay?

Helios watches her all the while, unawares of the playful nature his dragon is taking on. Unawares of much of anything at the moment aside from Ginia and her own problems. It was only a matter of time before he talked to her about it, probably should have done so sooner, but really he had no right. He was much the same way back when. When Ra had told him to sit down and take it easy before he passed out or some such thing. He wanted so hard to push away the pain that he just...overworked himself to exhaustion to forget the sorrow of losing something so precious.

He'll reach out an tentatively give her shoulder a small reassuring squeeze just to let her know he's listening, let her know he understands. ] You have nothing to apologize for. It's the world you were born into. You're just...trying to live in it the best you can. I'm sorry I can't...I couldn't do more to help.

[shadedsunlight]

[Ginia smiles thinly, her hand reaching up to give his a brief pat.] You did all you could, given everything. [Her informant, her friend, someone to count on. She remembers feeling better about things, calmer, more stable. Would that have been the difference in her life? If she had there for all of it? To pull her back and rein her in after Erika's death?]

How much... do you remember? Or is... is there anything you want to talk about? I know it was quite the change for you.

[folklorist]

[ Helios' hand fidgets slightly under that pat. He'll just draw his hand away then looking at her nodding. ] I-I know, but, but still. I could have done more I feel. [ Always could have done more. There's never a limit to him product of him being so hard on himself at times. ]

Only...only bits and pieces now. I know that...that I helped get through something terrible. [ He purses his lips looking down at the table. Erika. The name feels like a faint echo now but the feelings are still resonating strongly. So many things were different in that world. Nero didn't abuse him, hate him for whatever reason, they were actually brothers like they were meant to be. And then there was Elise. ] I'm sorry, for what happened to her.

[shadedsunlight]

Always a common feeling, but believe me when I say what you did meant everything.

[Ginia rests her arms on the table and looks out the window, taking a moment to gather up her thoughts. It was a nice day, sunny, no rain, nice. A pleasant break from yesterday's overcast weather and the rain over the weekend.]

Her name was Erika. Erika Rosenfel. She was... my best friend and my partner. We meet as teens. Sixteen and already a hunter... [How wrong was her world when teenagers could be killers and criminals because it was the family trade?] She helped me so much after my family was killed. I ended up working with her until she was killed. I... [her hands fold together and she covers her mouth, gathering up her thoughts again.] fell apart. Threw myself into work, even began thinking... [She takes a steadying breath and shakes her head.]

...Today's her birthday. She always told people it was April Fools, but it's really today. She'd be 29. [There's another laugh, weak and tired.] ...Sorry, didn't mean to get on this topic at all.

[folklorist]

Gods Ginia. I-I'm so sorry. [ Even if there's flashes of the memories. The funeral the crying Ginia's shaking figure pressed against him as he tries to soothe the hurt and the pain of losing someone so close, so dear. But even in that alternate reality he's lost Elise and he's not sure how it's fair, it isn't fair. Losing her family and then that happened? It didn't seem fair. No. Life wasn't fair, was it? Nothing ever was what it seemed. Helios shakes his head. ]

There's nothing t-to be sorry for. So, please, d-don't apologize. E-Especially to me... [ he who dumped the fact that Elise had died on her in a similar fashion. Never topics to bring up but oh how they unexpectedly emerged. He can only guess what she was about to say and gods he wishes he couldn't. Taking your life because the pain was all but unbearable and you didn't think you could ever move on or recover. He knows what that kind of pain leads to, what kind of thoughts. He looks at her with all the compassion and understanding he can muster. ] You...you should plant something for her. In, in the memory garden.

[ There's a feeble smile from him. ] It helps at times.

[shadedsunlight]

[Ginia folds her hands together and rests her chin on them. It was a comforting old habit for her, one she always did when she didn't feel like talking or needed time to think on something. Occupied hands were silent hands. Now, even though she could talk, they still had the same purpose. Her life hadn't been easy. Nothing about life was, but sometimes it felt like whatever force controlled the world really liked seeing her kicked in the teeth.

She smiles faintly at Helios, appreciating his words and understanding. They'd both been through a lot. Maybe too much, but so went life. Even Ginia knew others had it worse than her. Wasn't that why she fought? Why she even killed? To stop anyone else from going through the things she did?]

I was thinking about that. Alice planted tulips for her, I've planted buttercups for her. But... maybe going back later would be nice.