ϡ - Appointments Post

[folklorist]

This post here is for personal conversations which should happen but one or both of us doesn't want to put up a new post/log and thus we will just thread it out here. This can be used to thread with Helios anytime and anywhere. This can either be in person (with action), or via the journal's call feature (voice and/or written).

When replying to this post please mark in the subject line when and how it is taking place EX:
[Action, March 11th]
[Voice, September 8th]
[Written, June 10th]

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[folklorist]

I'm fine now.

[ He is biting his lip on his end. The will to write out what he needs to is fleeting and he finds himself hesitating. ]

The mask. I was so alone and in pain and I just. I couldn't fight it. And then I-I ran into Alice... [ His writing stops for several long drawn out seconds it seems. ]

I'm so sorry and I understand if, if you don't want to associate yourself with me anymore. I'm sorry for everything you're going through and I know words written or spoken won't take away the pain. I told Giles I wouldn't leave the apartment building but...but if you want me to then I will.

[ He'll apologize to Giles later if at all possible. He doesn't expect her to forgive him and he doesn't want to come between her or Giles either. ]

[shadedsunlight]

[Ginia stares at the words, reads them slowly, reads them again. Helios attacked Alice? That's why she's here?

She closes her eyes and thinks. It's just as she told Giles. It was the mask, not him. The mask and the Malnosso, and that applies here too. She knows it does. It's Helios, who has never been any less than kind and helpful to her and someone she respects and greatly cares about as a friend. Helios, who would never hurt anyone intentionally.

It's strange. She wasn't there. She has the injuries, but she wasn't there and thus can't judge the actual situation. All she has is the aftermath, his apology, and her own fear.

Good, fear. An emotion that can do so much. She's not so much afraid of Helios, but rather what he can do. When you're a human with a knife, there's much you can do against someone who can throw up barriers and shoot fireballs.

But it's Helios. Helios. He'd never act that way under normal circumstances. It was the mask making him act that way. Just as the mask had turned her into a ghost. How the other mask brought Alice out every evening. Ginia keeps reminding herself of that, forces herself to remember.]

It was the mask. Not you. Don't leave the building, Helios. Please. If Giles wants you to stay, I want you to stay.

[folklorist]

But I. I hurt you. It doesn't matter if it was the mask. I should have tried to fight it. [ It was some part of him too, wasn't it? Just like it managed to bring out Alice in her. A darker, eviller part of himself that even he didn't know he was capable of having. ]

I want to help. In, in any way you'll allow me to. [ But he'll understand if she doesn't want it not right now at least. ] I'm so sorry.

[shadedsunlight]

There's something I've come to learn about this place and it's that sometimes things do happen out of our control. Can any of us promise we won't be affected and not hurt someone we care about? I don't think so. Under normal circumstances, I know you would have never done that.

I now feel utterly selfish asking, but can you do anything for my wing?

[folklorist]

I know. But you should be. You and Giles both should be... [ But you're not, why aren't you? He still doesn't understand and...no he has to stop thinking like that. Those words written are just like the words Giles spoke to him the night of the 25th. ]

It's not. God you're not selfish for asking at all. [ a pause. ] I...I can try to do something. [ He's never healed a wing, thankfully, yet but he'll try his hardest to help. ]

[shadedsunlight]

Should we? Helios, you're my friend. On someone else I might have given up. But you? You're... you're one of my best friends here. One of the closest people to me besides Giles and Frederic. And you're so utterly you too. It's okay. I forgive you.

[Some part of her realizes she's probably insane for accepting what happened to easily. She's cut others out of her life for lesser reasons and nearly being killed isn't something so lightly. But things happen out of their control. Wasn't that why she promised Giles to stop him if he ever came back a vampire?

It's Helios. One of the best friends she's had in a long time. Maybe there's some selfishness, but she's not so inclined to throw a good friendship away.

And maybe she's just tired of everything. Fighting, waiting nervously for the other to come back from their death penalty, picking people up after someone else leaves... she's tired. There's no more energy to hold anything against anyone.]

It is selfish. I was going to contact you to check up on you, but I wanted to see if you could do anything too. Utterly selfish reasons. And I'm still not saying no because I'm tired of this clinic.

[folklorist]

I don't know. [ It's still confusing to him he still doesn't understand it. Being the one blamed for everything never getting a chance.

Helios doesn't think it selfish, not at all, if only because of his own drowning guilt about the whole thing. ]

I can come by now then if you want?

[shadedsunlight]

Only if you aren't busy right now.

[folklorist]

No of course not. I'm not busy at all. [ He's been cooped up in his room courtesy of your boyfriend, Ginia. Helios might share the same sentiments about being able to leave. Not that Giles was forcing him against his will but...he's been fighting with leaving his room for awhile now.

This might just get him to do so. ]

[shadedsunlight]

[Amazing how one person can want to return so badly to the apartment and the other wants to leave.]

All right. I'll be here then. Thank you, Helios.

Once I'm back on my feet, we should have dinner. I'm sorry for delaying that.

[folklorist]

It's it's nothing you have to thank me for. It's the least I, I can do. I'll be there shortly then. [ He is the one who put you in there after all. ]

And it's technically my fault for it being delayed. Or-or the Malnosso whichever you prefer to blame. [ He still feels bad can't you tell? ]

[shadedsunlight]

I like Malnosso blame. [Because sorry, she's not going to blame you.] I'll think on what to cook while you come over.

[folklorist]

Alright. I'll...see you in a few minutes then.

[shadedsunlight]

See you in a few minutes.

Take care, Helios.

[folklorist]

In a few.

Thank you Ginia. For-for everything. [ For not hating or blaming him even if he still blames himself and probably will for awhile. But this will help somehow. Things will get back to normal because they have to. ]

[shadedsunlight]

There's no need to thank me. You would probably do the same for me.