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ϡ - Appointments Post

This post here is for personal conversations which should happen but one or both of us doesn't want to put up a new post/log and thus we will just thread it out here. This can be used to thread with Helios anytime and anywhere. This can either be in person (with action), or via the journal's call feature (voice and/or written).

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[After a moment, Robert puts his tea down and quietly steps closer, offering Helios a weak, gentle hug.

He doesn't know if the other man will take it, but the suggestion is to cry on his shoulder.]

... I... I am... a-always here for you, Helios... n-no matter what...

[... as much as the Malnosso allow, at least.]

... you... c-can cry, if... if you n-need to...

I-I know and I'm...I'm thankful f-for that.

[ He stiffens ever so slightly at that embrace. But he just...bites back a sob and shakes his head, turning his attention to the floor as he does so. No. No he has to be strong and he can't...he can't throw this on Robert on top of everything else. He goes to wipe at his eyes with the back of his hand. His voice cracking slightly as he replies. ] I-I'll be alright. Th-thank you.

[It's not throwing it on someone when that person willingly accepts the burden.

As such, Robert just presses into Helios' chest, repeating almost breathily against him:] ... wh-whatever you need... I am here for.

... I... I d-do not mind...

[And it's not like Helios is the only one here who could use a good cry.]

[ It is when you never wanted anyone else to willingly take it. ]

N-No it's fine. I-I'll be alright. [ Even as he speaks that lie his eyes burn and his throat hurts as it feels like it's closing. It shouldn't be this hard but it wasn't fair. None of this was fair. ]

[He wants Helios to trust him, to trust him enough to let go and let those feelings loose - he wants Helios to understand it's okay, that they know what this pain is like, that they can suffer it together.

He doesn't want Helios to be alone.]

... Please...

[Please let him ease these pains.]

[ There's a shuddering sigh as Helios moves away. He doesn't want to bother Robert not with this pain. Not with the pain of losing someone as close to him as Giles was. A friend...no, a brother. He was gone forever there was no more life for him back home and it hurts so much to think about.

He looks down at his shaking hands the injured one still unable to fully close, even now, even after all this time. Helios purses his lips biting his lower lip gently. ] It's al-alright. I'll be alright.

I am always here... always.

You often say you are... a-alright, but... but I know you h-hide things from me sometimes...

[Robert looks down at his own hands, the fingers curling gently.] You... c-can be honest, for once. I do not mind... all I want is to h-help.

[ And Giles wasn't. He knows it wasn't the others fault but it still hurts. He hurt him and then left and now he did it again and was gone, completely, for good. ] Everyone misses him. B-But we...we have to be strong for one another and so I...

[ He can't cry. Not now when so many people need him. ]

[Robert needs Helios to be honest with himself, if nothing else. If that means he needs to cry, then that's what it means.]

Not right n-now, Helios. Nobody has to be... s-strong, right now...

[ There's a hitched breath. ] But G-Ginia and-and Grune and Buffy. They-they n-need someone to help them t-too.

[ He shakes his head pulling away from Robert slightly. ] I'll be alright.

[ Because Helios keeps his emotions and feelings bottled up. It's what he does it's how he's learned to cope. That crushing loneliness is pushed to the side for some gratitude and appreciation which is directed at Robert. He'll wipe at his eyes with a shaky hand. ] Thank you though. I-I appreciate it. I-I...I miss him. But, but so do a lot of people.

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[Well, Robert isn't about to force Helios to do anything. He has never been that kind of person.

All he does is let a soft smile flicker across his features - strained and weak as it is, it's genuine.]

... Please d-do whatever... is best for you, Helios...

... I... I j-just want you to... to know that I am always here for you. A-Always.

No matter what... if you n-need anything...

[And it helps with his own pain, too, to have something to distract him.]

... Do you... w-want to do something...? P-Perhaps... read, together...? Or... or... [Anything that would distract him, really.]

Reading...that, that sounds nice. It's s-something Giles and I did when I...when I couldn't. [ He'll blink back some more tears at that memory. When he died for the other and Frederic in that jungle. Giles and him went to the boat and just...sat and read together.

It was nice and peaceful and it made him genuinely happy. ] Thank you Robert.

[Oh, he sees those tears - but he won't comment this time. He remembers that dark time - the pain of knowing Helios was gone for awhile... Even a short while.

... Reading is nice.]

Wh-what would you... like to read...?

[At this point Robert will read anything with him...]

A favourite... b-book, perhaps? [There's an obvious stumble there - Robert instinctively wants to say "text".]

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