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folklorist) wrote2013-09-10 03:46 am
folklorist) wrote2013-09-10 03:46 am
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ϡ - Chapter FortyEight; Day of Remembrance [action|voice]
Do you have a tradition that celebrates or honors the dead back home? In Romania back in the old days people always used to celebrate with a carnival. Merry Cemetery of Sapanţa is what it’s called now. It’s a very large and colorful cemetery also a museum as well. It’s quite well known to locals but sometimes you get people from around the world to go visit it. It’s not mourning in the obvious and usual sense, but it does help when you go about it a certain way. Amazing how cultures and people vary in their depictions of it, it’s very…interesting to say the least. The fact that death doesn’t have to be solemn but a celebration towards moving forward into a better life is a strange concept to conceive. Even when I was younger it was hard to be happy at such an affair, but perhaps my parents were right. Perhaps the person has gone on to some better, happier, place and thinking about it always made me smile just a little bit. [ There’s a soft sigh on his end as he continues. ]
But, goodness that is a bit morbid. I apologize for such things, it's just one of those days. [ He sounds a bit sad as he says those words. One of those days indeed and few handful of people who he's spoken to about this knew exactly what he meant by that. ]
What are...somethings you do to keep your mind from wandering? Making new sigils, spells, and reading helps me a bit but well perhaps I need some new busy work to sink my attentions into.
[ There’s a pause before he speaks once again. ]
But for something less dreary; I have an idea I’d like to discuss, if anyone is willing to lend an ear. I realize that Cloud Nine hasn’t been in use for quite some time. I was wondering if anyone would be opposed towards me opening up an ethnic sort of café. It would only be open for breakfast and lunch, but the food there would be cuisine from all around the world and not just Earth either. If anyone would be interested in helping I would appreciate it. You can speak to me about it over the journals or even stop by house 44 if you like. I’ll also be around the library too for most of the day.
[ He’ll leave the journal open as he makes his way off to the memory garden to give Elise a new batch of flowers then. He’ll stop by the flower shop before heading over too. It was irrational to be sad having grown up with that sort of mindset. But he was always sad on this day because despite it all he still missed Elise a great deal. One thing that prior shift had him thinking about was her. In that world she was alive and well despite not having stayed with Helios for too long a period. He was happy even without Elise but somehow that thought seemed wrong to even acknowledge now. But there was Max and he was happy, incredibly so, and yet here he was in the memory garden with a fresh batch of late blooming flowers in his hands. He would go about his business throughout the day shortly after visiting Elise’s plot in the memory garden. The tea shop, Grocery store and then finally the Library to check up on things. He has a distinct distance look on his face as his thoughts churn within the confines of his head. He would have to tell Max about it, and he’s been thinking on how to approach the subject for a long time, so this seemed like as good a time as any. ]
[ Locked: Filtered to Max ]
Max? I-I’d like to talk with you if you’re not busy? I know it’s a bit sudden but…it’s somewhat important. I-I’m at the library so if you wouldn’t mind stopping by?
[ It’s quieter and less intrusive than anywhere else really. He’ll be home later in the evening where he’ll take Luminair and Maggir out for some play time in the front of the house before starting on dinner in the evening. ]
But, goodness that is a bit morbid. I apologize for such things, it's just one of those days. [ He sounds a bit sad as he says those words. One of those days indeed and few handful of people who he's spoken to about this knew exactly what he meant by that. ]
What are...somethings you do to keep your mind from wandering? Making new sigils, spells, and reading helps me a bit but well perhaps I need some new busy work to sink my attentions into.
[ There’s a pause before he speaks once again. ]
But for something less dreary; I have an idea I’d like to discuss, if anyone is willing to lend an ear. I realize that Cloud Nine hasn’t been in use for quite some time. I was wondering if anyone would be opposed towards me opening up an ethnic sort of café. It would only be open for breakfast and lunch, but the food there would be cuisine from all around the world and not just Earth either. If anyone would be interested in helping I would appreciate it. You can speak to me about it over the journals or even stop by house 44 if you like. I’ll also be around the library too for most of the day.
[ He’ll leave the journal open as he makes his way off to the memory garden to give Elise a new batch of flowers then. He’ll stop by the flower shop before heading over too. It was irrational to be sad having grown up with that sort of mindset. But he was always sad on this day because despite it all he still missed Elise a great deal. One thing that prior shift had him thinking about was her. In that world she was alive and well despite not having stayed with Helios for too long a period. He was happy even without Elise but somehow that thought seemed wrong to even acknowledge now. But there was Max and he was happy, incredibly so, and yet here he was in the memory garden with a fresh batch of late blooming flowers in his hands. He would go about his business throughout the day shortly after visiting Elise’s plot in the memory garden. The tea shop, Grocery store and then finally the Library to check up on things. He has a distinct distance look on his face as his thoughts churn within the confines of his head. He would have to tell Max about it, and he’s been thinking on how to approach the subject for a long time, so this seemed like as good a time as any. ]
[ Locked: Filtered to Max ]
Max? I-I’d like to talk with you if you’re not busy? I know it’s a bit sudden but…it’s somewhat important. I-I’m at the library so if you wouldn’t mind stopping by?
[ It’s quieter and less intrusive than anywhere else really. He’ll be home later in the evening where he’ll take Luminair and Maggir out for some play time in the front of the house before starting on dinner in the evening. ]
[Action]
No you-you wouldn't be hypoocritical. It-it's never stopped anyone b-before from-from second guessing forming a friendship with me. I'm an outcast back home because of-of what I did...because of what I am now. [ He'll look back at Max, his eyes slightly watery now. ]
I-I thought you might be angry... [ because this was a pretty big secret to keep. But Max didn't seem to mind at all, thankfully. He lets out another shaky breath as he squeezes Max's hand gently. ]
Thank you.
[Action]
[There's a touch of fierceness to Max's voice when he says that, because it makes him angry to think that someone would treat Helios like that for something he couldn't control.]
You're Helios. You're a good, kind man who tries to do right by everyone he meets. If they can't see that then... they don't deserve to know you.
I am. But not at you.
[He smiles, squeezing back, thumb running over Helios's hand.]
[Action]
I used to think it-it was my f-fault, you know? That I deserved everything they did to me and that it was right...
[ He sighs shakily and holds Max's hand with his cold one. The motion of Max's thumb running over his hand somewhat calming in that moment. ] But it was horribly wrong. And s-sometimes I don't want to go back home to that.
[ To all that pain and loneliness. ]
[Action]
[He tries to gentle himself, to suppress some of that burning anger that he felt towards whoever had hurt him. It's only making Helios more jittery, he's sure.]
Then don't. If I could find a way... come home with me. Come back to my world. Maybe we could... could figure out a way.
[Action]
[ His throat closes up a little as his eyes sting with tears when Max says that. Helios will look down at the floor biting his lip all the while. ]
But. Wh-what about you and-and your family? I-I'm sure they'd have a good few questions about...about us. [ Helios knew Max's world was different but he wasn't sure to what extent. What if they hated him? What if Max got in trouble for his being there? There were so many factors to consider and yet that offer sounded so nice when he really thought about it. ] I don't know if-if leaving all those people who d-depend on me is right either.
[ But he so desperately wanted to leave his home world that he thought about it. But he would be abandoning his and Elise's dream. Was that right? Or was is just a selfish want that he could muscle through on his own? He sounds conflict and terribly sad when he says that. ]
[Action]
[He was even mostly human. He honestly could not see his parents minding. They'd probably be intrigued.]
I- I don't know. It's... the offer's there though. It'll always be there.
[Action]
[ His voice is soft, sad, and slightly pained as he asks that. It's not that he's trying to be difficult, but many magic communities probably wouldn't take lightly to the fact of what he's done. ] What do they think about a foolish man who tries to summon demons and gods to converse with them?
[ He's looking at the floor now his eyes never meeting Max's ]
[Action]
Helios, my grandfather was instrumental in allowing the Sidhe unfettered access to the human world.
[He lets out a small sigh.]
Honestly, they'd probably ask how it went and could you give them diagrams. And even if they didn't, they wouldn't care because I love you and that's all they need to care about.
[Action]
I-I just...worry about you and-and what my mistakes might lead to. I don't want you to-to suffer for something I did. [ It's always been what's held him back before, no reason for it to stop now. ]
And I don't want him to make you make you s-suffer either.
[Action]
He was a diplomat. He helped to broker the treaty with them. Helped us win the war but also... well, Brendan would argue the point with me. Violently.
[Really really bad reaction to that new. Yup.]
I make my own choices. I decide. And I decided I don't want you cutting yourself of from people, from me, because you're afraid of what might happen if the stars align wrong. It's no way to live.
[Action]
It's-it's not, is it? Ra w-would have said the same thing, Varron too. [ He'll fiddle with one of the unopened books on the table. ] I-I've tried to get better at that. Being here has helped immensely. But when I return home... [ he's not going to remember any of this and all this growth and progress he's made will have been for naught. ]
It's just something I've always d-done. Ever since-since I was little, it's a hard habit to break...
[Action]
[He manages a wan smile, but it fades quickly, a bitter twist of his lips. It had hurt.
It's much nicer focusing on Helios's face when he looks like that.]
Sound like smart guys to me. [His expression falters when Helios has to bring that up. Part of him would love to go home, but the thought of giving this up, of giving up his friends and Helios... it makes him feel sick.]
You managed here. You can manage back at home. I know you can. You're tough. Tougher than you think.
[Action]
Oh please, don't t-tell them that if they ever drop by. E-mun Ra's ego is already big enough, Varron too. But I-I suppose you're right. I have support here though, but maybe I'll remember that I have it back home too.
[Action]
He manages a small smile when talk turns to an easier subject.]
I'll try not to, gorgeous. My ego is already big enough for both of us.
I hope so.
[Action]
[ Sometimes it's beyond the scope and power of a person. Helios nudges Max in his side before his gives him a soft kiss on the cheek. ] Yes, well, I'll be the one to balance it out then if it gets to big to fit through the door.
[Action]
Max turns his head, capturing Helios's lips instead.]
The world thanks you in advance for that, I'm sure.
[Action]
Oh, yes, I'm sure. Nevermind that I've saved the world twice since opening the school. [ He chuckles. ] Well, not by myself I wouldn't want to add to our ego.
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